After the first challenge I encountered week 5, and however feeling strong after confidently completing the requirements -even if I still need to get back to my press release- I know now I came into week 6 unprepared… by that I mean my week would have certainly had the expected successful turn if I had previewed the webcast documents …. and made the tangible pieces (the 24 SMART goals/PPNs shape sheets + Movie poster) on Sunday after the webcast… but instead I keep falling asleep writing this blog….
This program is taking over my life, I’m fully aware and accept this necessary sacrifice for my success … it is already proving it is working but I’m not sure how long I can sustain the rhythm … I’m so excited the manifestations of my DMP are getting me busier! Although the down side of that is that this is not allowing to find the necessary daily time to maintain the rhythm of repetition (post lunch readings); also I’m going to bed really late after the night requirements, leaving me with 4 to 5h of sleep max, therefore I don’t get up earlier -anymore- to do my morning reading and as I miss my lunch one I start my first one 24h after the last one … plus of course life events and commitments add up to that, a printer who only prints in pink… you see where this is going … a glitch … off track, mister (yes it is a man 😉 ) subby regained its habitual procrastination and I missed the benefits from this week empowering compound effect…. and now it is 4am PST and I’m still writing this …
This is teaching me, again, the need to plan -what I have always fought against- preparing in advance to get ahead! Will I repeat the same mistake this time again? I have Saturday to switch back to the new Christelle I started to create few weeks ago… the one who will complete week 6 work and prepare Sunday session … with ENTHUUUSIASM!! (some will get it … lol)
Last note, this week mental disconnection with the program didn’t support my search for colored shapes in my environment but during one day …. then I was able to catch some, like my Swedish client who wore a yellow t-shirt (he was my yellow square), the red circle on the traffic light sign … my home hasn’t revealed its natural triggers yet but my sheets are up now!
So… am I going to get ahead …. yes I will! Have a wonderful week 🙂
Wonderfull to see you fight for your “evolution”… yes, you hit another wall…. yes, you are honest about it, have revealed it…and it will “dis-appear” from where it came….Your wild freedom, has been pushed into a “machine vortex” forcing your attention in One direction… very, very difficult for Anyone who has the Natural abilities you already have…. You will complete….one step, jump…at a time. love joel
Thank you Joel, you are always by my side 🙂
Yes it is a fight and I’m going to win! You will see, won’t you! 😉
My subconscious made an attempt to get me back to this “appearing” comfort zone I used to go to for years now…
This old pattern of mine will always be available and tempting me… the difference now is that I know how it feels to be back there again (my step back) each time, whether big or small step back, it made me literally feel nauseated…. I couldn’t stand it, I don’t belong there anymore!
We do more to avoid pain than to gain pleasure and that was pain I felt, psychological pain, what indeed helped me (with the help of new tools added week 7) take that big jump forward into living life with such empowerment and real freedom this time … not a reactive one 🙂
More in a few days … week 7 … 🙂
even if that step…jump… is backwards… you are learning to be certain….as always, lovejoel
🙂 yes always …
hi so happy that you have decided to not be the average couch potatoe, metaphor for not falling asleep and when in resistence just write some more. my bed is sqare hahaha. within is a far more interesting place to bide my time, i can see what a benefit it is for you to stay. when you wrote the yellow tshirt, i almost seen you hug with excitement or it could have been my visual hug for you for getting the yellow square. you are fantastic , give yourself a hug, i am sending one now . cheers love cindy
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Thank you Cindy, for seeing me like you are and for your encouragements (with a hug as a bonus)! 🙂
Indeed each time I fight I dissolve more and more undesired pathways in my brain and I win!
Do you have yellow sheets for your square bed? I hope so, lol!
Warm hug back at you! 🙂